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A few months ago, my 7 years long boyfriend left me (whatever he tells you, no, I’m not ok).
I had no job…. well, not a stable one anyway.. I was trying to make my small illustration company something viable, and he was supporting me for rent, food, etc..
We agreed he was the one who would have to get the trouble of finding a new apartment and moving and stuff, and that he’d have to assume his responsibility and support me until I found a job.
I finally found a job, I start tomorrow, YAY. But while I waited for said job, I had way too much time to think;
I’m so not ok with this.
I keep trying to cheer myself up thinking of what I’ll finally be able to do now that I’ll have money, but then I think about the time I WON’T have to do those things. During the week, I’ll be in a grey cubicle in a call center, and on the week-ends I’ll have to try and keep my creativity alive and try to keep my illustration company going. I see the black hole getting bigger and bigger and sucking all my hopes away. I know I won’t have time to take on contracts, draw for myself, prepare for conventions, work, clean, make my lunches, game, and have a life. I know I’ll try, and I know it won’t go well.
I’m ok with my ex leaving me, that’s life. I’m not ok with him taking away all my hopes and dreams and my creativity and my will to go on with my passions. He’s the one who insisted I quit my job to open this company 4 years ago.
We said we’d try to stay friends but it’s getting harder and harder for me not to hate him. Or rather, it’s harder and harder to fight the fact that I DO hate him.
I wish life had ”fast travel’. Can’t I just be at the point where my life is back on track? I just want to skip all this and be at the point where I can say ”Yeah, I’m fine”
I NEED HELP
I started a gofundme for my friend who’s moving near my place from 12hours drive away! She needs all the help she can get, so friends and I are offering stuff in return for donations! Check out the rewards here and check if there’s something you’d like! If not, sharing is free ;)
Hi! So my friends are making a gigantic move soon, and everything was planed, but bumps in the road happened and now money is short. so I made them a gofundme campaign… so if you guys can donate a bit, here’s the link… you can get rewards too!
qtipping said: Uh hi, so it might have been a while ago, but I saw you were talking about Legolas and the eye change between Hobbit and Lotr on Legolas tag so... let me explain. It doesn't say in the book (because he wasn't in Hobbit) but what I think is that, because he is younger at this time his eyes are brighter. He hasn't seen war and battle yet save skirmishes from orcs and spiders. But Thranduil's are dark because of the war, so I'm guessing in BOTFA he will see tragic death and his eyes will "get older
Oh wow! I like this idea. I thought something similar too, and I really hope they show it happening (subtly though). I just wish the contacts were better made :/
they look cheap and they look like they’re irritating him or something the way he keeps his eyes crazy wide opened with them on :/
I wanted a poro on my bag. so I made one.
Made of sculpey. yay!
A little project I did. Have fun!
Legolas Vs Legolas
Anonymous said: About the Legolas eye contacts is that in LOTR sometimes they would forget to put them in.
Realllyyy?! wow. cool. Thanks :D
I think they should always forget to put them… they were just goddamn creepy in the Hobbit… it wasn’t even pretty contacts, it just looked like halloween cheap contacts..
I mean… I think there’s a problem when, in a movie where they can CG an entire BELIEVABLE world, you can totally tell that THIS GUY’S eyes are fake…
You know… Legolas looked fine in LotR…
so I still don’t get why they gave him crazy flashy blue crazy crrraaazzzyyy contact lenses in The Hobbit…
Did I miss something? Does something happen to his eyes between the time of Bilbo and the time of Frodo in the books?
(yeah I don’t like to read, sue me)
NOOOO NO NO NONO FUCK FUCK FUCKIG CBS IS TELLING WOMEN NOT TO REPORT SEXUAL HARASSMENT BECAUSE IT WILL “DAMAGE THEIR CAREERS” and “HARASSMENT IS AN UNFORTUNATE PART OF CLIMBING THE LADDER” I AM SO ANGRY THEY ARE LITERALLY TURNING SEXUAL HARASSMENT INTO A NORM THIS IS NOT OKAY
This is an actual article and I’m still having a hard time believing it’s real.
IF YOU ARE SEXUALLY HARRASSED YOU REPORT THAT SHIT
That is AWFUL. Please report it when you’re sexually harassed. If not for yourself, to try to protect future victims.
no no… they’re right… it’s true… they should handle it on their own… BY REPORTING IT DAMNIT!!!
I are angry at you article >:(
Felicia Day talks TableTop Season 3 at Wondercon
Oh my! Felicia Day is wearing the Necklace my friend made and I drew the design! WOOOO!!!! Geekgasm much
You can check out her website there! www.onyria.ca
Big sad Rant
a few things I’ve been working on and forgot to upload
-life support- digital painting - tshirt or button…
-tea time - digital painting - poster
-chubby alicorn - digital painting - poster
-Thallaraan - digital drawing - race concept based off charr, qunari and dalish for a tabletop rpg game
Rant #caught between a rock and a hard place
So my boyfriend of 7 years thinks he wants to dump me… but he’s not sure yet… so let me tell you things are so tense at home that you can not only touch it, you can see the creepy dark aura of doom emanating from my apartment.
I’ve cried my eyes out, I stayed in bed and I drank a lot of beer (well.. 2 in a day… that counts as a lot more beer than usual for me). I went through deep sadness, anger, then wanting to just ignore everything, then anger again, My friends are awesome and they’re helping me through this… but I honestly have no idea how long I can take this grey area. Cauz you see, I still live with the guy, he still wants to comfort me, says he loves me from time to time, but yeah… other stuff… is bad, real bad.
The other awesome thing about this is that, 4 ish years ago, he convinced me to quit my job and start my own illustration company. And as every company that’s starting, I’m not living off of this yet so he’s supporting both of us…. money’s tight but we’re not starving and everything is paid on time…
He wants me to get a job… At first I thought it was because money was getting really tight with debts getting the best of us… but now I feel like as soon as I get one, he’s gonna feel ok about leaving me… what an AWESOME motivation to look for a stupidly boring 9-5 job right?
The wait for an answer is agonizing, I don’t want to be at home, EVER, and I have no motivation to do ANYTHING even though convention season is starting real soon…
Goddamnit 2014, I thought you were gonna be great, but you and I are no longer friends… >:(
I seriously wish I had a jackhammer so I could go through either the rock or the hard place. It seems like every opportunity it has, life takes a tiny needle and stabs at my little universe…. it wouldn’t be so bad if the needle wasn’t dipped in poison, killing it over time.
I’m stuck between my own problems and my friend’s problems, trying to help them and ending up neglecting myself, or trying to help myself and ending up neglecting my friends. I need to find the comfy spot between the rock and the hard place so I can build a temporary nest there; find a way to compromise between taking on the task of helping out while gathering the courage to help myself as well.
I’ve found that I’m not the only one like this, which is ”good” in a way… I just wish no one had this problem, which would be good in a much better way.
Fortunately, I’m incredibly stubborn and I won’t give up, but I think I need a break. I need summer to come back so I can just sit outside in the park and concentrate on dollar-store-incredibly-ugly-kite-flying and trying to make the biggest bubble I can with soap, water ans a small plastic wand.
2 paintings of little creatures I made during the past week. Both are acrylic on canevas, 12” x 16”. the first took 5 hours, the other around 8 hours.
Land of the Rising Fluff is for sale at 75$
Winterish Fartsicle is on sale at 85$